Ingrid's story

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh everyone :)

Once upon a time there was this painfully shy girl, through out her teenage life all she wanted is to just fit in and because her extreme shyness it was difficult for her to make friends up until she was 15 and found a group of friends that stuck by her for god knows how long. In a way Ingrid was a late bloomer, at the age of 16 she was surrounded by friends. Like every other girl, all she wanted  was to be loved, Ingrid wasn't extremely beautiful nor was she horrible to look at, she like to maintain good grades, she doesn't smoke, she doesn't drink, a fashion and make up enthusiast, a law abiding citizen and she would prefer to spend her time with her friends than going to a parties, that is how Ingrid is. She had a pretty standard high school experience, fell in love and got her heart broken, laughed, cried and whole she-bang. Through-out the years  her friends come and go like seasons,constantly changing and keep telling herself this is a part of life.

One day she fell madly in love with the materialistic world and completely lost touch with her deen,  music was  huge part of her life, the quran and the hijab was so foreign to her. From the day she hit puberty, hijab was never a big deal..it never was. The things she have gone through in her life was a painful experience filled with insecurities, anger, paranoia and everything else in between and convinced herself that it is again, a part of life and it'll improve. she had come to realized that her days are always filled with laughter and the night will end with tears but could never find the reason why. why she was depressed, why she was insecure, why she was paranoid. She could never find a good excuse for it yet did not turn to the creator immediately. 

On a fine Thursday afternoon, sipping her hot Milo in the office, made a sincere du'a to Allah for the first time in   years and decided to learn about her lost deen and immediately fell in love with its teachings and donned the hijab almost instantly. Her 1st debut as a hijabi came to a shock for most people yet it was her best decision to date. Few months after she decided to embrace Islam, the answer to the long forgotten questions was answered. She could never find true happiness because she was finding happiness in all the wrong places, she turned to music for peace, turned to her friends for advice instead of turning to the creator of heaven and earth who will never turn his back on her, turned to the opposite gender for acceptance, turned to make up and expensive clothes to make her feel confident and beautiful. 

She understood that she may not be the best muslimah or even a good example of a perfect muslim, 99.9% of the time, she fell short of Allah's standard that Allah has set for the entire ummah but she never lose hope in Allah's bountiful mercy and continue to strive to be a better servant. After so many years Ingrid finally found true happiness and peace :)

- THE END-

Just wanted to post something different, I sincerely hope you enjoy Ingrid's story :) hopefully I would have the inspiration to write more short stories, Inshallah.

bayyinah podcast

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh everyone :)

I highly recommend listening to this podcast incase you are looking for new audios.

http://itunes.apple.com/podcast/bayyinah-podcast/id340137077

please let me know what you think! <3

IGNORE!

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh

for some reason, my previous post got cut out and I can't seem to fix it :/

I shall try again tomorrow, the new blogspot interface is just.....sigh.

Beware of....the green eyed monster!!!!

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh everyone :)

On top of your head, what is one of most ugliest emotion a person could have? apart from hatred, anger and ignorance......and that would be jealously. There is always be people in your life that is wealthier, that you think is prettier, more brilliant and etc than you. This is not only my personal opinion but it is really something frowned upon in Islam.

hadeeth which was narrated from Jaabir ibn ‘Ateek al-Ansaari, who attributed it to the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him): “There is a kind of jealousy which Allaah loves, and a kind which Allaah hates. As for the kind of jealousy which Allaah loves, it is jealousy when there are grounds for suspicion. And as for the kind of jealousy which Allaah hates, it is jealousy when there are no grounds for suspicion.” 

sigh. Life is so unfair

NO NO MY FRIEND, I TOTALLY DISAGREE WITH YOU :)

You see, our lord is never unfair..after all, he is the must just.

and you keep wondering to yourself, if he is the most just than why is my next door neighbor lives in a huge mansion with billions of cars and swimming pool and a tennis court and has his own McDonald's branch at his residence like Richie Rich while you are stuck in a rut living in a small home that  is probably comparable to his tool shed? 

or

Why is your best friend so beautiful - flawless skin, pretty smile, big beautiful eyes framed by long thick lashes while you're stuck with cystic acne all over your face?

or 

" wow, that sister writes beautifully..I wish I could be more creative like her. "

Why do we wish to be like someone else when Allah created everyone to be unique? to be their own individuals?

"Beware of jealousy, for verily it destroys good deeds the way fire destroys wood" [Abu Dawood]

Would you consider this to be a test from Allah? Would you consider that Allah MAY test your patience and gratefulness through individuals in your life? :) Trials and tribulations can come in so many forms, whether it is a personal jihad..struggling to be grateful to things you have in life instead of comparing yourself to someone whom Allah blessed them with wealth while there are others who are starving day and night, thinking what are they going eat tomorrow?

Something to think about :)

Updates?

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh :)

Just to update, I have something drafted out already...I shall post it either later tonight or tomorrow morning. Inshallah :)

I normally do not do updates like this here on my blog but my blog is just alittle too...bare. lol

Hope everyone had a fantastic weekend!!

sister in the hood pt 2

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh everyone

First of all, I would like to apologize for being on hiatus for a while, I have been on "post block" lol 

"post block" is not an actual sentence but it seems to describe how I felt during my hiatus. At first I was so pumped thinking I was going to blog everyday last month but turns out I was just out of inspirations and out of ideas and hopefully things will be more occupied around here, Inshallah :)

Today I just want to talk about sisterhood and how incredibly amazing it is. Now, I've posted once before about sisterhood and I still feel the same way...but even more in love with my sisters in deen :) Mashallah how amazing it was "meet" all of them  such inspirational, bright individuals!! 

I never thought that I would be a part of something so wonderful, just lots of amazing reminders, hijab tutorials, articles and etc. obviously, you might not know what I am talking about :P but recently some time in Ramadhan,  one beautiful sister decided to create a group on Facebook and it has grown so much and Alhamdulillah it has been amazing!  Just a group of sisters who are just  in love with their deen :)

Do you have anything similar at your masjid or your local communities? :) if you do  LET ME KNOW, I would love to hear about them :)

I hope everyone had a fantastic Ramadhan and salam eid mubarak to all my brothers and sisters in faith!!

“A man went to visit a brother of his in another village. Allah sent an angel to wait for him on the road. When the man came along, the angel asked him, ‘Where are you headed?’ He said, ‘I am going to visit a brother of mine who lives in this village.’ The angel asked, ‘Have you done him any favor (for which you are now seeking repayment)?’ He said, ‘No, I just love him for the sake of Allah.’ The angel told him, ‘I am a messenger to you from Allah, sent to tell you that He loves you as you love your brother for His sake.’” [Muslim]

“By the One in Whose hand in my soul, you will not enter Paradise until you believe, and you will not believe until you love one another. Shall I not tell you of something that if you do it, you will love one another? Spread Salam amongst yourselves.” [Muslim]

“No two people who love one another for the sake of Allah, or for the sake of Islam, will let the first minor offence of either of them come between them.” [Bukhari]

“It is not permissible for a Muslim to be estranged from his brother for more than three days, both of them turning away from one another when they meet. The better of them is the one who is first to greet the other.” [Bukhari and Muslim]